我那时候的表情肯定在扭曲。莫名其妙。
明明我就知道是那种画面还期待有所改变，其实那样很累，我不懂在逼着自己去想什么。
这次能真的实现吗?还是又会被打回原形?不过已经决定去努力，不想给自己遗憾，也想变得更勇敢。
快乐的感觉好不真实，笑容背后需要顾虑的东西实在太多，因我们是群体生活，时刻得顾及他人感受。
可是心还是很深很深地被刺了很久的感觉，针也没能拔出来，连思绪也一起被拉进坑，真的很深。
大概是埋在最底层，连疼痛都无法安抚，无法触碰，只能等它自己平息，恢复。
不过还是隐约阵痛，头脑也变得冰冷无力。我想，这比被倒吊起来还要让人感到恶心厌恶，甚至憎恨。
要避开产生这种感觉的方法就是让自己不去看，不去听，不去想，像止痛药，暂时缓和舒解那样的不适。
要治根，就得下定决心。我的决心，就是彻底忘记。
不能靠失忆，我只能好好说服自己。总有一天，我能摆脱你。
Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
I'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breaking
And I've been wrong, I've been down,
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream "are we having fun yet?"
It's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
And it must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you
And this is how, you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how, you remind me
Of what I really am.
我们这样，很有趣吗?
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